Obstacles don’t block the path, they are the path

Obstacles don’t block the path, they are the path

overcoming fear and comparisonAfter my last blog post, I felt overwhelmed and humbled by the positive feedback. It was a HUGE step of faith to share a personal season of my life. I wasn’t quite sure how people would respond.

I want to thank everyone for their comments and those who opened up about their own story. We all have a story, and sometimes reading or listening to someone else’s, can bring hope and reassurance, that we are not alone and we can draw courage from one another.

When I first thought about blogging, I had wrestled with it because I was crippled with fear and self-doubt.

Why would anyone want to read my story??

Most people don’t know this about me, but this fear stemmed from my childhood. I was a victim of bullying, and as a result of that bullying, I was robbed—of my voice and of any confidence. Over time, this spilled into other areas of my life—and my adult life.

what the enemy uses to hurt me

I always used to feel incompetent to communicate in front of a large group of people. My voice would start to shake and my heart would race, then I would turn red with embarrassment because I was afraid that people would notice how nervous I was. I know this happens to others, too, however, the bully from my childhood would echo in my head.

From the outside no one knew how much I struggled with this, with my confidence.

When God spoke to me to start writing years ago, I was scared shitless—excuse the French! I couldn’t believe He would even consider that I could. But God kept prompting me. And prompting me. And prompting me. You get the picture. So, I obeyed.

When I started, my writing sounded like my six-year-old son had written it. No joke! That’s how I saw my first attempts. Because after all these years of fear saying: ‘you can’t do that!’, ‘who do you think you are?’, I didn’t think I could put my life into words and out into the world.

And yet, I can, and I have.

obstacles do not block the pathIt’s been difficult, I’m not going to lie. Just because God impressed on me to do it, doesn’t mean it’s easy. I haven’t just whipped up my last post out of the blue in a couple of hours. For some people it might be that easy. For me, writing is a constant discipline like fitness the more you do something the better you become, writing has been mentally and emotionally challenging, a fight to get over my nerves, to change my mindset of what I had believed about myself: that I sounded stupid and people would laugh at me.

This has been my inner battle: to believe the truth of what God has spoken to me versus listening to the lies of how incapable I was and what I had experienced in the past.

So I continually speak out the promises God has given me especially in times of doubt. I ponder on words that have been prophesied over me as a reminder of all that God can do through me.

God's word vrs lies

Another thing that held me back was comparing myself to others because comparison will always rob us from stepping out!

I read other people’s blogs and theirs sound ten times better than mine. I would start to role play in my mind “I can’t do it”

I’m also married to a very gifted communicator, so I would compare my writing to my husband’s, which made me feel worse. I felt more unqualified because I was not at his level. I kept putting it off to write until a friend of mine spoke these words:

“Jo what you have to say is different to Az you have a story of your own.”

That shifted my mindset from nah to yes! I have my own story to tell and my own unique way of communicating it.

Stop comparing!

never compare your journey with someone elses

My previous two posts I probably had over 50 or more drafts. Thank God for supportive friends who have kept me accountable and honest.

Some days I wanted to cry because I felt inadequate, but two of my close friends kept encouraging me, pushing me to write.  Don’t give up!

It’s been a good reminder—a vital one—to surround myself with good company, people who have believed in me more than I have believed in myself; people who cheer me on.

I still have a looooong way to go with my writing but it’s a start that counts and stepping out of my comfort zone.  It is rewarding when an act of obedience bears fruit.

So, my encouragement is: If you have been feeling a nudge from God to do something that is extraordinary, trust your instincts and step out in faith even if it means to do it afraid. I was scared as hell—still am, some days!

God sees our potential in what we can become, rather than who we are not.

God doesnt call the qualified

4 thoughts on “Obstacles don’t block the path, they are the path

  1. OMG! You had me at the title: obstacles dont block the path, they are the path! Amen and amen, sista! Thank you for another insightful post. It broke my heart to read of your experience of being bullied. I’m so pleased God’s been on your case to write about this. Keep it up, gorgeous! Xxx

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    1. My dearest friend! Thanks for your words…glad you like the title better than the other one lol your such a treasure this is all you. I am blessed having your input in this. Love you bro xxxx

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